Things are looking up for me! And i love it. I broke up with the boyfriend because I cheated on him with a college guy and my very close best friend who I have had a crush on since my freshman year in high school. The thing is i didnt feel bad about it. It felt right in so many ways. Yes I did love my BF but more like a friend. Im not rushing anything with my crush for the simple fact that with the guys i've been with in this year have wanted only sex. I gave in to one and one only and i was buzzed. The first bf i had this year well that was a drinking relationship meaning that all i ever did with him was drink and make out and sex well that was close but I did not let it happen. The next one well he didint want a relationship with me because (his words) "im not boyfriend material" so all he wanted me for was literally sex. But that never happened never!! Then there was the 2nd boyfriend I thought that realationship would last forever, but my jealous issue of him being with the mother of his kid really bothered me! I did not like it. I just wanted to be single to be honest because im so tempted everywhere I go. But with my crush it's like every boyfriend i ever had when I'm with him no one else matters I dont know it's wierd. But i have no intentions on having sex with him because i dont want a just sex relationship with him I want us to be comfortable with him and right now it is. Plus he knows my family and well there is one problem....he's my brothers best friend but well shit happens and we really are thinking a lot about it.
Aside from the "love" life I start school on monday :D. Blogg about that in a bit!
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